Especially it seems when you have run out of words. I have been in some crazy mute stage, that I think looking back over the last couple of years always tends to happen in the same phase. I don’t know what it is about August-September, but I am back with my right words. :)
As I type that it may actually be part of my creative cycle. Also perhaps would have been easier to come back if I did not fight it and beat myself up for not coming here calling myself a lazy person. Perhaps a note for if this happens next year may be to show myself some grace for September!
In any event I have still been arting, even if I did run out of words. Also…in big news around here, one of the proposals I was working on for the organisation I was contracting for was shortlisted and they have been asked to make a presentation to the government department in that area and have asked me to help present!! Which was a huge honour. Very exciting non art news.
I am four weeks behind in showin my 52 cards so will show those all here today. My version of attempting to catch up. Then I have a BIG ANNOUNCEMENT later today. I can barely keep my mouth shut around it. Then sharing some mail art and art journal stuff later in the week. I have already scheduled the posts which makes me feel very organised!! :)
In other BIG news I got my firs big girl camera. I finally made a decision and it is beautiful. A little nerve-wracking to use, but I also got a book on my kindle that I am going to work my way through. I do however see how you can spend a fortune on lenses. I did not fully appreciate that before. Now…oh my gosh. I get it.
This could be a very expensive hobby…
But look…isn’t she beautiful??
Card 30 was actually painted using my daughters left over paints from when she had finished painting. I was feeling a bit lazy and didn’t want to get out one of my art journals to put the left over paints there like I normally would.
I can see here how uninspired I was feeling and trying to reassure myself that my creative mojo was going to come back, so I would not feel like I had fallen from the fly forever. Though honestly I had a few doubts as I wondered about I was really doing here.
Still dithering and asking questions…so many questions. It really is interesting looking back and writing about it now because it does symbolise my angst about what I was doing. I had so many plans for posts and really could barely make myself go near the computer!! Grace for September is clearly needed. I am going to make sure I have a plan in place for next year!
Starting to take more affirmative action…plugging away behind the scenes and also this week I began creating a bit more. I think this was the week I had no more contract work and honestly I did not a lot more than rest. In fact maybe that is why I ran out of words here. I was so busy writing reports and I had no more to give…watch me make justifications for not posting!?!
I do wonder also as I am writing these words that I stopped my morning pages…I suspect that has contributed to me drifting. Back to those then without delay!!
To find out more about these 52 cards…found words and images on a playing card, please visit Teresa where she explains so wonderfully the whys of the cards and has such inspiring wisdom in her words. They guide me every time I read them.
Thank you in advance for having me back. I do feel back! :)