It has been one of those weeks where I wonder if me and paint are cursed. I have worked on paintings and used up paint all to no avail. I don’t know what it is. If I am forcing it, or not listening enough, but in any event, nothing this week has turned out very pretty or finished.
Over on my Facebook page I spoke about my difficulty with this:
There were parts I liked, and parts I didn’t. But I just felt really stuck about where to next. I decided to shift some energy and smudged myself, the dining room (where I make create), even the painting. I lit some incense, played some music and started something else entirely. And then I saw lines so I did that…
I finished this one off as I well I think…finished for now anyway! :)
And I worked on this. The Butterfly Effect has the topic of Star Trek this week. And I couldn’t resist. I have watched Star Trek since I was a young thing. After my parent’s split up when I was 4, I used to watch it, knowing that my Dad would be watching it at the same time as well, and it was like we were linked, in my head at least.
We have even decided what alien race our different family members would be. He was Vulcan. So when I saw the challenge, I thought Spock. Because he has been after me to do a painting for him. But the painting doesn’t look like Spock, and it was starting to get overworked so I need to leave the oils alone for a bit to dry before I come in again. But it does look Vulcan at least I think. So I have decided it can just be a random Vulcan, not Spock after all.
Also, because I know my Stepmother reads this sometimes, so Wicked Stepmother if you are reading this please, don’t mention this to him! :)
And now we get to the really ugly. I know there are people who say that they have done something ugly, and when you see it, you think to yourself, “Gosh! Really, you are calling that ugly, you should see my ugly!” Sometimes I even wonder if those people are after false compliments.
A bit like those people who tell you to “excuse the mess” when you visit and then you step into a home that looks like it was just featured in a magazine for perfect homes. Sometimes I think my idea of mess is far different from other people’s idea of mess!
But now I am delaying the showing of ugly. I have spent so much time on this. And it has been on the go since last year. It gets started and layered, and then covered and the process begins again. I decided to harness some of last weeks finishing energy, but that seemed to dissipate quite quickly. And now on this layer I am at ugly and going no where fast. And though I am hesitant to show this, I am also harnessing the “keeping it real” energy, and this mess is taking up space on my easel right now, waiting for me to see the light and find a way forward.
And yes, my easel is very overcrowded with unfinished works at the moment.
I am sharing over at Paint Party Friday as well, where you can see some much more completed work I am sure! :)